RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen

I sigh and wipe my eyes roughly before sniffing and looking back at Tony.

"Oooh just, some secret that one of the guys told me, I told him because I felt like I was lying to him and, he didn't like it so, I lost it with him."

I give Tony a look that tells him not to ask what the secret is, even though I can see the little twinkle in his eyes telling me that he wants nothing else but to know it.

"I just feel like such an asshole, I told myself I would never walk out, never be like that BASTARD Tim, because I know what it's like to be in that room alone and now I've gone and done it. I hate myself right now."

Number of posts : 920 Age : 43 Registration date : 2008-04-01

I hate having a best friend who knows all the gossip but won't tell you. It's the most cruel position to put a gay man in. Especially a gossip queen like me.

"I don't think anyone could blame you right now. I've heard what you've got to deal with." I half laugh, "Who'd have thought Mick would end up pregnant, right?"

This probably isn't what he needs to hear right now but as I mentioned before. Gossip Queen.

"Seriously though just because you've stormed out, doesn't make you like Tim. You're too good here." I tap his chest, "To be anything like that asshole."

"I think Mick crying on my shoulder really drained me of being diplomatic as well," I say with a slight smile, feeling a little better that I am getting this all out, even though the tears are still falling.

"I guess you're right, I mean, I can go and make it up to Brian without sex, then I won't be like Tim," I smile a little, getting my sense of humour back, that's always a good sign.

Tony always knows how to make me feel better.

"Thanks Man."

Number of posts : 920 Age : 43 Registration date : 2008-04-01

"Making it up to him without sex? That's no kind of making up. That's just... saying sorry. Euw."

I half laugh as I'm saying this, mainly so Coby doesn't think I'm making light of his past and his fears. He's far too paranoid for his own good that boy. He's suddenly the older, responsible one in a relationship and he's scared he's automatically going to become an asshole.

"No problem, my dear. I'm always here when you need a shoulder... or a neck or a nipple to cry on." I pull my shirt out, peering over it, "Or a naval. Coby, how the fuck did you cry on my stomach?"

"I must be talented?" I query with a shrug and a laugh before poking Tony's belly button with a laugh.

"Thanks again though, I have being keeping all this in for ages now, for a good two weeks now. I really needed to get it out," I say before leaning over and hugging Tony and kissing him on the cheek.

I sigh and look over at the mirror on the opposite wall, "Fuck, I do look terrible. I might have to hide out for a little while before I go back to Brian. I don't really want to explain to him why I look like a panda just yet."

Number of posts : 920 Age : 43 Registration date : 2008-04-01

"Kid might have a panda fetish. He'd be all over you like me on a boner." I offer, "No? Well you're free to stay here as long as you need. You always are."

I pull out of the hug and move across to my bed, jumping on the end and letting the bounce end naturally.

"Coby, you're in with most guys here, right? I need a man. Like now. Zacky's hooked up with Matt, much to my great surprise. I've lost my fuckbuddy." I fake pout, "My dick is getting lonely."

I place my hands on my hips and look down at him pouting on the bed. Good ole Tony, never one to drag out a problem longer than it's needed, if he had a little more tact I'd make him my deputy.

"I don't know, I would say Mick but..." I shudder, "What about that new kid? He's straight, maybe you could change that? I don't know. Or Alex, since he's back on the market?"

I try to actually think of someone for my dear friend Tony. I look up to the sky thinking as I move to his bed and sit down on in crossed legged, facing him.

"Erm... fuck, I can't actually think of anyone."

Number of posts : 920 Age : 43 Registration date : 2008-04-01

"I could try and warp the new kid. I do love a challenge." I smirk to myself, "And Alex is hot as all hell but... I dunno, I don't want to risk it just yet. I know Matt's all 'Oh I love Zacky!' but y'never know, y'know?"

I sigh overdramatically, "There's no-one for poor Tony! Unless you and Brian want me to join in?"

I grin widely at his unimpressed face, "No? Screw you then."

I bash his arm with the closest thing to me, a battered Sex Pistols shirt.

"Yikes, get your stinking bed clothes away from me!" I screech as I bat my arms at his slightly stained shirt, not wanting to know whether that's paint from Art or something else from his work of art.

"Look, I haven't even sampled the crown jewels of Brian yet, so if you think I'm going to let you go before me, you must be mental."

I wouldn't normally talk about sex like this with anyone else, Tony is probably the only friend I have where I can let my hair down, bitch or just share my feelings with and he wouldn't tell a soul, and he wouldn't judge me.

[[I think we are in need of GIRL TALK here.]]

Number of posts : 920 Age : 43 Registration date : 2008-04-01

"You could consider it a test drive?" I offer, sounding a little more desperate than I'd meant to. It's not that I've got a thing for Coby's boyfriend, I just am that desperate.

"So you two have never actually gone the whole way yet?" I ask, "I'm surprised. And strangely impressed."

I get comfortable on the bed, figuring this is a cue for a big heart to heart. I don't want to be in an uncomfortable position if I have to give out my award winning advice. Granted said award was one for 'the most tactless advice ever given in the history of existence' but still, it's an award.

"How come, if you don't mind me asking? Is there something wrong with him? Or you?"

Like that.

"No Tony, there is NOTHING wrong with us," I say, knowing exactly what he is getting at, well, not exactly but I have a brief idea.

"I just... he's a virgin and I don't want to push him, y'know? I mean, he nearly throw up on all over me the other day trying to deep throat me," I can see him just about to burst out laughing from the images.

"I just don't want to push him is all."

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I bite my lip to stop myself from laughing hysterically over something that was obviously very traumatic and very, very bad for poor Coby and Brian. But it is very, very funny. I hate having a vivid imagination sometimes.

"He...?"

I clear my throat in an attempt to stop myself from laughing. That's better. For now.

"I'm sure you wouldn't be pushing him. I mean, look at you Coby, you really think he's not going to want you inside him? Maybe you should just give him some gentle nudges in the sex direction?" I offer, "I mean, how long can you really live with handjobs and puke covered blowjobs..."

It's at this point my amazing sense of humour gets the better of me and I laugh. A lot. Hard. Like milk through the nose hard.

I narrow my eyes at his laughing form as he leans over and laughs hysterically into my knee.

"As AMAZING AS YOUR ADVICE IS..." I yell to him just to get his attention back on track.

"You think I haven't tried that? Trust me, I have, I mean, just the other day right, I tried to finger him and I stupidily didn't tell him while we were kissing so he bit right into my lip until it bled, and head-butted me!"

I pause for his insane giggles that are bond to follow from that, I know what kind of imagination this guy has.

Why am I telling him all this? It's just going to increase his sense of humour and make him laugh even more at me. ~~Even though I did laugh a little at myself and Brian after this all happened.~~

Number of posts : 920 Age : 43 Registration date : 2008-04-01

I don't bother attempting to say anything. Instead I just laugh. A lot. Near hysterically in fact. I mean... he... with the... it's too funny. He and Brian could do gay porn comedies. It takes me a good few minutes to regain my composure. I wipe the tears from my eyes and just let the final few after giggles come out.

I clap Coby on the back, "I'm sorry, dude. You have a funnier sex life than a pair of clowns."

I try to remember how to breath and act like a normal human being now, "Okay, so maybe next time, you tell him? Or you stay down south while you're doing it... but then you'd probably end up getting your head crushed between his thighs. But lets face it, that wouldn't be the worst death in the world."

I stare daggers at him now that he has finally calmed down, "ANYWAY!"

"I just don't see the romance in me saying, 'OK Angel, now I'm gonna finger you, doesn't that sound like fun?' I mean, I want it to flow more naturally, 'know?"

"Well, he did have a dream about me rimming him once, when he wasn't dreaming about Corey," I say before looking up to the ceiling as if I have had the best idea in the world, "Maybe I could make that dream come true for him."

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I try to think of anyway this could go wrong for the pair. I have a few amusing ideas but choose not to share them, instead keeping them to myself. I'll use them when I need cheering up.

"Firstly, get over the Corey thing. That's probably not helping you two."

Maybe I should get over Corey? In a more literal sense.

"And rimming could work. I mean, it'd be a good introduction to the world of the prostate!" I say, waving my arms around like some crazed mystic, "Just don't do it after we've had curry."

Ah, just had to say it, didn't I?

"Oooh man, Tony! Tact man, TACT!" I yell to him with a disgusted look on my face while flailing my own arms around.

I sigh and run my hand over my face.

"Maybe I should get back over there then? Make up to him in a nothing like Tim way. He never ever rimmed me. Bastard thought it was disgusting even though he made me do it to him..."

I get a slap from Tony in the arm that tells me to shut up about Tim. And by right I should, the guys not here anymore, and I am so over all his bullshit.

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"Brian is not Tim. You are not Tim. Tim is an asshole. Neither of you two are assholes... often." I say, "Now go stick your tongue up his ass and make the world a better place for all of us."

It's blunt and to the point. Whenever Coby's upset, this place suffers. It's all dark and emo and no-one needs that. Green hair does not fit in with an emo environment.

"And I shall continue my quest for interesting porn. You know there are some guys who get off on having their dicks bitten? Like really bitten? Insanity."

"Yikes. Well, a nibble here and there is nice, but bitten?" I shudder a little as does Tony at the idea of it.

"Well, I better get going," I say as I sit up from the bed and adjust my clothes a little, "Thanks for lending an ear man. I really needed it."

I bend back down with a smile and kiss Tony on the cheek before patting him on the knee. I smile at him one last time before making my exit towards the door, smiling to myself about seeing Brian again, but also frowning a little on the inside. I just hope he's not sad that I left him or mad at me.

They say a watched kettle never boils, or a watched phone never rings. Well a watched door never opens either. I've been staring at the door for the past hour, willing Coby to come back through it so I can apologize for freaking out and try to make things better. But it's not worked. I've tried not watching it, I've surfed the net, watched Mick's latest video blog - he seemed strangely calm to me. Nothing's made the time go any faster.

So here I am again, staring at the door, willing it to open and be Coby.

"I'm sorry, baby, I'm so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, sorry."

Nothing.

I shake my head and yawn as soon as I jump outside of our dorm door. I am willing myself to go in and just give him the biggest hug of his life. But I'm scared, I've never walked out on anyone before and I don't know how he'll react. I don't want to see him cry, or be angry because of me.

"Well, guess there is only one way to find out," I say to myself before taking a deep breath and opening the door. I walk in and look around to see Brian sitting in the swivel chair at my desk looking at me. His features all look very neutral.

Shit.

"Erm, hey?"

Well he came back. That's a good start, right? I smile at him.

"Hey."

I don't really know what else to say. I bite on my lips to stop a huge stream of apologetic crap coming out. That's the last thing he'll need to hear right now. I never normally apologize for things related to the argument. I tend to ramble a lot in these situations.

I get up from my seat on the chair and walk over to him, I've never liked arguing or making up across a room. I don't like having that kind of distance between me and someone.

"Um... I... I don't really know what to say here." I say with a half smile.

Well at least he's not crying or screaming at me, that's a start. I smile a little at him before wrapping my arms cautiously around his waist and bring him closer to me.

I look down at his eyes, I see hurt in them and I bite my lip. God, my poor, poor baby.

"I'm sorry I walked out. I promised myself I would never do that, because I know what it feels like to be left alone after an argument. I promise you, I will never do it again. I'm sorry," I apologise as I tap my fingers nervously on he base of his spine.

"Well, at least you didn't just storm out in the middle of the arguement, right?" I offer, "Anyway, in a way I'm kind of glad you did. I don't really think I could have dealt with angry Coby."

I smile at him as I move my arms around him too. I feel much better now he's back, now I can feel him aganst me.

"Anyway, I'm sorry too. I completely overreacted. I guess I've just been jaded by my own experiences. I'm sure some people could be... in his position." I don't want to say it outloud, partly because I don't really want to think about it, partly because I don't want anyone finding out that I know too, "It takes all kinds, right?"

"I didn't, I just didn't see what happened to you the same way as what happened with Zee," I didn't really think of what happened to Brian as something with any love in it. But I should have realised that he would have being affected by it. He'd have to be soulless to not be though.

"I see incest as maybe some love, there was no love in what happened to you sweetie, it was abuse. I... I should have being more sensitive to you though, I'm so sorry."

I smile sweetly down at him before leaning down and pecking his lips gently.

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