RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen

I groan and let my head full back into my hands again.

"All he did was say how special it was. I didn't put him straight at all. I should have told him it was only sex," I groan shaking my head.

"God, why does that boy have to be so in love with me?"

"True, but I'd still feel fuckin' bad for exploiting him," I say to Chris.

"I'll have a talk to him about it. Maybe we can come to some understanding or something," I say.

I hope we can anyway.

[[Matt now???]]

I smile at my reflection in the mirror, spiking up my newly dyed blue hair.

"Perfect," I say to myself as I make kissy faces at the mirror, "Why yes Mr Lovato. I did do this hair myself. Does it... turn you on?" I ask the mirror in a slightly husky voice before letting out a small giggle and batting the mirror.

I suddenly hear the door slam and I yelp, jumping up and ending up knocking some of my hair gels and make ups off the sink and onto the floor.

"Crap," I back away from the bathroom, and walk into the main room with my eyes wide, "Who's there?!" I demand looking around the room. No one interrupts me alone time flirting with myself and gets away with it. But my face softens when I see Matt laying on his bed with his head in hands.

"Matt? What's wrong?"

That. Bastard. He is so dead. And after we all had that meeting, even after Jacoby passed the vote that we would all leave Matt alone. It was his fucking idea as well! I let my jaw clench as I listen to Matt. He looks like he's about to cry. That Bastard. I will KILL him.

"Ooooh Mattie," I say, really worried about him as I walk over to him and sit on his bed.

I sit with my bed crossed on the bed, taking Matt's hand and holding it into my lap.

"You aren't stupid Matt. He's the stupid one, for fuckin' you around like that. As for Chris... he's just a bastard for trying to have his cake and eat it too."

I am actually so mad right now, that I'm using odd and old time sayings. I must be pissed.

"Ooooh Mattie," I say as I wrap my arms around him, "I'm so sorry."

I haven't seen him in so much pain. He wasn't even this upset when he just flat out rejected him. Granted this is worse than just being rejected in my opinion. He now knows what he'd be missing if Alex was to deny him anymore sex.

"This is why I don't fall in love here. It's safer not to. I know it's hard, especially when you grow such an attraction to someone, but you've just got to try to forget him. He's not worth your tears Honey."

Matt is the only one that will ever seen the caring side of me. He's my best friend and I'm one of the few he can confide in. He's weak and he needs me, no matter how much he denies it.

"You'll be OK though. You are stronger than you think."

"Yeah, you'll be alright man," I say as I hug him a little closer to me.

He's not going to be alright. Now he's tasted Alex, he's going to want to have him whenever he sees him. I sigh and look down at his face, kissing his forehead and trying to think of how I could get off the subject. But the only thing I can think of is...

"So, girl talk now. How was it? What did you two get up to?"

I really need to be less obsessed with sex at times like this.

"Oooooh, sounds... sweet," I say with a goofy grin on my face.

Awwww, my little Mattie is growing up. Ooooh man, that was really odd.

"Yeah sure, what did you want to ask me about then?" I say to him.

I love it when he asks me for advice on sex. He always seems so innocent and for some reason, I always feel like the older brother. And I haven't had that amazing feeling of helping for quiet a while. Well, not with my own blood anyway.

I shake my head, trying not to go down that road, trying not to think about how I won't be seeing my brother this year, again. I just look down at Matt.

I grin down at him and laugh a little.

"Matt. Of course you'd turn yourself on, I mean look at you man!" I laugh a little, illustrating my point by pointing at him.

"It's called Mixophilia, it's when you are turned on by yourself. I've got it too." I smile, knowing that just about everyone in this school has some sort of Mixophilia.

"You know how you can test it out. Jerk off in front of a mirror and see what that does to you. It's the ultimate test." I say with a firm nod.

"And it's nothing to be nervous or worried or embarrassed about. It's a fetish, everyone has at least one."

[[I can't wait now ]]

"Basically, yeah, in the sexual sense. I just gave you the fetish term to it." I smile at him.

He looks very confused and very unimpressed, quirking his eyebrow at me and his teeth sinking into his bottom lip.

"It's a lot more fun than it sounds, believe me. You wouldn't believe how something as simple as fucking yourself with a dildo to a full length mirror can get you so turned on."

I nod thinking back to my first experience of mixophilia. I giggle at the memory and look back at Matt, "I'll tell you about my first experience actually."

I giggle again before grinning like an idiot remembering, "It was in the changing rooms at H&M, jerking off to those many 360 degree mirrors with Jacoby."

Good times. Good times.

"Ouch," I say defensively as I rub my arm and smack him back just as hard.

"You know Matt, you don't have to be so defencive. Just because you really want to try it out."

I say in a sing song voice, wagging my finger as I do so.

"Now, if you don't mind. I have... a dateish, with Tony from the fourth year," I grin, "you'll be OK by yourself right? Because I can always cancel..."

And if I have to cancel, he'll be coming over here for the date and you know that's not what you want.

I say to myself in my head, but Matt knows the drill by now anyways. Besides. I plan to take a little detour on my way back from Tony's room. Right to Alex and Chris's room. Good thing I'm wearing black tonight.

I climb off the bed, checking myself out in the mirror, making sure my hair looks just the right shade of blue.

"It's because you are in denial Mattie," I grin into the mirror before making my way back over to him.

"Listen. Try it out tonight, see how it feels, you never know. You might like it." I say to him before smacking his cheek lightly and grabbing bottle of lube from the desk as I make my way to the door. Matt shots me a glance and I just shrug.

"It's cheaper than a bottle of wine," I grin, "See ya. Have fun Mattie and Mr Mirror."

I make my way out of the room laughing to myself about nothing, watching as people flood out of rooms into the main halls, ready to go home for the holidays. I wish a little bit that I was one of them. Maybe I should give Matty a call tomorrow, just to wish him a happy Christmas and all.

I walk down the halls before I see Alex suddenly disappear from his room. He's making his way down to the pool area and the showers. I scoff a little before looking at the door.

Chris would probably be behind that door now, resting from getting a hard fucking from Alex. Wait until the others find out what a bastard he is. I'll get him so punished that he won't know what's hit him. Or I can take it upon myself to punish him for everyone. I mean, I can put the fear of God into him. After all, nobody hurts me Mattie.

However, I love Matt to pieces, but their is no WAY I am missing this date just to defend his right. I'll do it later on.

I grin and make my way up the stairs towards Tony's room. Plotting my revenge as I go.

[[Cool. What shall we do now? Skip forward?]]