| RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 3:58 pm | |
| I bite my lip as soon as I see Chris at the door, I smile at him weakly before pulling him into the room and shutting the door behind him. "Chrissie, it's nothing to worry about, I swear, it's just," I say before moving around so that my back is flush against the door so Chris can't try to get out, "you know what Dad Z is like whenever Dad M gets sick." I brace myself against the door for anything that Chris is going to throw at me. I make my body harder in mass like I have learnt to do in situations like this, something I learnt from Dad M. Since we are the only two that can really help him when he has one of his attacks. | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 4:03 pm | |
| "Wha... what?!" I scream, feeling the red mist descending over me.
I can feel my hands balling into fists, my eyes flitting around for things I can use against my sister, I can use against this fucking sickness. I don't want to be like this. I don't want to explode on my family and my friends whenever I get upset or frightened. I don't want to frighten everyone but I can't help it. I've tried so much but nothing helps as the glass thrown at Courtney proves.
"Why?! Why Court?! Why Daddy?!" I scream again, tears pricking at my eyes, "Fucking FUCK!" | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 4:11 pm | |
| I duck from the glass that is thrown at me, luckily it's just a glass of drink not anything that means a lot to me like the last time. But I just try and put the broken glass on the floor behind me before moving forward and grabbing a hold of Chris's shaking arms. "Chris. Chris, listen to me," I say to him calmly yet sternly as I look right into his eyes so he doesn't feel so alone, "Dad's going to be fine. The ambulance is here now, and they are going to look after him. Dad Z's there with him. It's going to be fine." I can feel him shaking violently from anger under my grip and his eyes are deadly wide from the anger. His pupils are huge and I can barely keep my eyes on them, but I have to. He needs me to. | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 4:16 pm | |
| I stare into Courtney's eyes, trying to calm myself down. I don't want to hurt her, I don't want to do the same as last time. It's not fair on her, she doesn't deserve it.
"C-c-courtney?" I ask, tears spilling from my eyes.
I can feel everything becoming somewhat clearer now. I'm scared, I'm upset, I'm angry but more than anything I just need a fucking hug and a promise that my dad's going to be okay.
My attacks are becoming less intense which isn't usually a good sign. They normally mean I'm close to a large episode. And they're the most dangerous of them all.
"Daddy?" | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 4:27 pm | |
| "It's OK Chris," I tell him as I feel his shaky calm down a little bit, meaning that he's coming down from his attack. "Dad Z is going to take Dad M to the hospital, he wants you and me to stay here, to hold down the fort while they're gone." I neglect to mention that Dad Z wanted Chris to stay here because he didn't think he could handle Chris right now. I know he loves Chris, and sometimes I feel that Chris is Dad Z's Daddy's boy. But he can't handle Chris's episodes, he doesn't know how to defuse them. He just panics. "Do you think you can calm down for me? Give me a hug, I think we are both in the need of one?" I ask him, trying to take his mind off of his attack by offering him some affection. | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 4:40 pm | |
| I bite my lip and nod, pulling Courtney into a hug. I don't want to stay home when my Dad's sick. I want to be there with him to make sure he's okay, to make sure those stupid homophobic doctors are treating him right, to keep him smiling, keep him fighting.
I can feel myself growing angry again but I try to repress it, not wanting to hurt my big sis... by three minutes.
"I'm sorry, Courtney, I'm sorry." | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 4:49 pm | |
| I hug him close to me, stroking his hair as we both take a seat on the floor, my back against the bed.
"It's OK baby, you can't control it, I know that," I say as I keep talking to him calmly. I don't loosen my grip on him completely though, the last time something like this happened, I let him go a little, his anger boiled up again and he nearly end up strangling me and his friend Lucas. "So, do you want to tell me about your date with Becky?" I ask him, changing the conversation now to get his mind off his attack and off of Dad, even though that's a little hard since the ambulance is now pulling away with the lights flashing and the sirens blurring. | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 5:21 pm | |
| I know she's trying to help but it's the last thing I want to talk about right now. I just want to now what's wrong with my Daddy. I hate how childlike I become when I'm frightened. It's never Dad, always Daddy.
I nod, "Uh... well, it went... it went pretty good." I say, trying to remember anything that happened tonight, "She agreed to be my girlfriend and... well I had my first kiss."
I should feel more embarassed by this than I do right now. I'm too scared to concentrate on my own humilation though. | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 5:35 pm | |
| "Really?" I ask him as I look down at his face, still stroking his hair back from his flushed, wet face. "That's great then isn't it?" I say with a smile. "and there's me thinking that you were going to embarrass yourself." I laugh a little before letting out a sigh and leaning back against the wall. The house is pretty much silent, it hasn't being like this for a while, we are always the noisiest house in the neighbourhood. Someone is at least normally up until gone 3 in the morning doing something. It's only midnight and it's deadly quiet. "You know he's going to be OK, right? Dad's strong Chris, he wouldn't let any illness get in the way of his kids." | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 5:47 pm | |
| "Well I did embarass myself but she did too so it all kinda balanced out for us."
I smile a little as some of the memroies of the night come back to me. I did have fun, I just hope I'll be able to have fun again in the future without worrying about my Dad.
"I know, Court, just... doesn't stop me worrying about him, y'know? I mean, what if something's really wrong and he and Dad Z can't have their happy ending?" I ask, looking across at her, "I heard them talking earlier, I was so happy for them." | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 5:54 pm | |
| "Yeah, I was happy until I hear about the ring issue," I say before shuddering, "trust me, no child needs to hear about that." I laugh a little, "anyway, I'm glad that you and Becky had a nice time. If I'm honest I thought you two weren't gonna get along, I mean, she's a skater and your.... you." It's probably not the best idea to insult him now, but really, if I was nice to him he would think something was really wrong with Dad. And no matter how much of a pain in the ass he is to me, I don't ever want to scare him like that. | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 6:11 pm | |
| "Have you ever spent time around Becky? Really? She's me with tits." I say, smirking, "And of course I'm me, I'd be worried if I was someone else."
I'm not even making sense with my lame attempts at jokes anymore. I'm too worried. But it's easier to mask it with lame attempts at humour rather than nothing at all.
"Can I stay with you tonight, Court?" I ask, "I don't want to be alone and worrying." | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 6:33 pm | |
| "You know what I mean," I know he's just trying to make jokes to mask how worried he really is, Uncle Brian told me that he does the same thing, he must have got it from him, although can you inherited things from your Dads kinda hot friends. "And I mean, that she is a punk and you are a metaller. Haven't you seen the News with all those fights in Mexico?" I laugh myself, realising how stupid that sounds because they were emos, but who really cares? "And of course you can man, we can stay up and watch some movies if you don't feel like sleeping?" | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 6:56 pm | |
| "Pft, we'll be like Romeo and Juliet and dance down the aisle to the sounds of... punk metal?" I suggest, leaning against Courtney.
I smile up at her, "Sounds like fun... kind of. As long as we're not watching chick flicks. I never want to see Lindsay Lohan again, unless she's in a wet t-shit competition with Angelina Jolie."
I lift my head up from her shoulder and stretch my arms out, they've been bent for so long, I was beginning to lose the feeling in them. MY eyes flick to the phone on the carpet.
"They'll call as soon as they know what's happening, right?" | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 7:00 pm | |
| I slap his arm playfully, "Oi, you can't say things like that about other women, you have a girlfriend now." I love to see the smile on his face when I say that too him, it makes me know that he's calming down a little more and he'll be bouncing around with the best of them pretty soon. "And I promise they won't be chick flicks, how about some comedies to keep us laughing?" "Dad Z promised that they would, don't worry about it, he'll keep my posted. And if he doesn't call in like an hour I'll call him and give him a stern talking to, yes?" | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 7:13 pm | |
| I nod, "Okay."
I still can't get used to hearing the words 'you have a girlfriend' in reference to me. If I wasn't so scared, I'd be doing my little victory dance. But then Court would film it and send it to Becky and she'd never want to see me again.
"Aw, but girls still look at other guys when they're with someone. Surely I can look but not touch?" I offer, "It's not like I'd ever get anywhere near those two. And even if I did, I think I'd die before I touched them." | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 7:21 pm | |
| "That is true, I remember when you told me about the time you met that dude from that band you liked... you fainted," I laugh a little at the memory of him telling, even though it wasn't so good for me falling off of my chair in the middle of Art class. "And girls are allowed to look at other guys but that's because not matter what guy they are looking at they always know that their boy is so much cuter, hotter, sweeter, funnier etcetera etcetera. Most guys look at a girl and think, "mmmm pussy." "So, getting off of that subject, when are you seeing Miss Blue Hair again?" | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 7:42 pm | |
| "I had every right to faint upon meeting Dave Mustaine. It's only normal." I point out, "He's like God. Seriously..."
I bite my lip before I start rambling on about Dave. It gets very silly and I tend to squeal a little. I only met him for about 5 minutes with a ton of other fans but still...
"Why would guys look at other girls and think about their cats... oh... OH... Oh no, no, noooo." I ask, "No, I... no."
I shake my head, I can't believe how innocent I can be sometimes, "She was supposed to come over tomorrow and watch some films with me. But with Dad being ill, I might cancel, I don't think I could concentrate and I don't want to, y'know, hurt her." | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 7:48 pm | |
| I smirk at the blush forming on his cheeks before pinching one of them." "Awww, you are too sweet sometimes, someone's going to take advance of that y'know," I grin. "Yeah, that might be wise, Dad might wanna rest and all," I say, "or you could ask if you could go round hers instead. It might help you take your mind off of everything." Plus I don't want Dad Z to be worrying about him and Dad M all of tomorrow. | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 8:08 pm | |
| "Yeah, true. I don't know, I'll have to think about it. It's too late to call her now anyway." I say, standing up, just to stretch my legs.
I moe across to Courtney's DVD collection, a good 200 short of mine, trying to decide what to watch, what would take my mind off all of this. 40 Year Old Virgin? Yup, sounds like the guy I'll be.
Wait, that's one of mine.
I pull it from the rack and wave it at her, "Stealing my DVD's again?"
[[I think we should move on from this in a minute, I'm running out of ideas for them which isn't just repeating the same thing.]] | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 8:13 pm | |
| I shrug and grin at him, "you want me to get off my porn addiction somehow." I smile innocently at him before getting up from the floor and sitting on my bed, getting some cushions ready so me and Chris can have a good old movie night together, staring up 'til the wee hours. It's nice that we can still do this sometimes. Even though we do annoy each other sometimes, it's cool that we can actually be nice to each other and joke around together. We aren't like the twins that can't stand each other, but at least we aren't like the twins that dress exactly the same and end up being 40 year old virgins together. We are just right. [[Yeah, me too. I think I ended that nicely, haha. What should we dooooo then?]] | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 8:29 pm | |
| [[Awww. Well Matt and Zacky are in hospital, so that's kinda repeating the same thing, so I think Brian/Coby's our best bet.]] | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 8:36 pm | |
| [[Yeah? Well, what could we do with those twwwwwwo? Maybe we could fast forward though, because otherwise it's the middle of the night.]] | |
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Connor
Number of posts : 1191 Age : 41 Location : Hidden in the undergrowth, ear to the ground... Registration date : 2007-11-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 8:42 pm | |
| [[Might be an idea. Unless they're up late, haha. Erm, I dunno. Something fluffy and smushy coz Dear God's raped my brain?]] | |
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Travis
Number of posts : 684 Age : 46 Location : showing these suits how it's fucking done Registration date : 2007-12-07
| Subject: Re: RP:]] St Luke's Reform School For Young Gentlemen Mon Jun 02, 2008 8:47 pm | |
| [[I have no ideas... erm, nope nothing. I think the hair dye stopped my creativity. Nuts.]] | |
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